Some Days I Feel Like a Mad Scientist

So I've spent the better part of the last week gaining a better understanding of Java applications, Lucene, and Nutch so that I could really have a better understanding of the power that can be harnessed with a highly scalable full text search engine.

I now know plenty of things that I can't have conversation with anybody about. Even other Nutch users would probably be bored with the kinds of things I've found interesting lately. Really this is what my life has been like for the past several months as I've hermitized myself while trying to realize my long term goal of taking over the world.

My life best analogizes to an operating system right now. I have a finite amount of things I can do on any given day, so I'm forced into a daily struggle with preemptive multi-tasking, prioritization, and queue processing.

A few months ago, I had an idea. A brilliant idea. One of those ideas that you get once in a lifetime. Every time I discussed it with my wife or anybody really (there've been very few people who I've let in on what I'm doing) I would get more excited - and the idea transformed itself countless times into something bigger and better. It got to the point where I was actually getting very tired from all the brain activity and it was shutting down my productivity levels.

I've been working on that idea pretty much non-stop ever since. It never really leaves my mind. I go about daily tasks like everybody else, but in the back of my mind I'm working on strategies for marketing, implementation, expansion, setting out long term goals, etc. Either that or I'm processing myself through a stumbling block that I've run into that I refuse to accept.

I'm unshaven. My hair fairly consistently looks similar to Einstein's. I've picked up two new programming languages, and evaluated a third pretty heavily before opting away from it. Quite frankly, I feel a little bit crazy at the moment, but in the end I will realize the vision I started with. And then, three days later, I'll figure out that somebody else already had the same idea and I could have saved myself 6 months of sleepless nights for $199.